Time to move on...
Sometimes the past has a way of keeping us from going forward. It doesn't have to be those ugly and traumatic experiences but often I find that good things that came to an end are what keep me from seeing what The Lord has ahead of me.
My life has been filled with both great experinces with amazing friends and also terrible decisions that brought pain and regret. But although bad experiences tend to make me strive for change and reinvention etc etc the good ones tend to keep me in state of trance, looking at them, admiring, waiting for that to come back or at least a version of it.
The psalmist says on psalm 121 "I lift up my eyes onto the hills, where my help come from? "... upwards and forward. Just as Paul said in Philippians 3:13-14.
Although it is not easy, let this be an encouragement that there is more to come; more people to meet, more prayers to be made, more miracles to be seeing, more life to be lived and to be lived for the glory of the Son of God, our Lord Jesus Christ.